“What?”
“For years.”
My throat tightened.
“I’d see how much she told you. How she called you. How you knew every little thing happening at school.”
Nadine’s face softened.
“I wasn’t trying to take your place, Marla.”
“I know.”
“I was just trying to make sure someone was there.”
That hurt.
Because there was no cruelty in it.
Only truth.
I nodded.
“I’ve missed too much.”
Nadine touched my arm.
“You can stop missing it.”
We found Tessa outside the music room.
When she saw me, she froze.
“Mom?”
Just that.
One word.
But there was surprise in it.
“You came.”
I had imagined apologizing all evening.
I had imagined saying something beautiful enough to repair years of hurried dinners, missed concerts, and promises that ended with, “Something came up at work.”
Instead, I walked over and hugged her.
“I’m sorry.”
Tessa stood stiffly for a second before hugging me back.
“For what?”
“For not being here enough.”
She pulled away and studied my face.
“Did Grandma yell at you?”
I laughed through my tears.
“No.”
“She kind of has a face that makes you feel yelled at.”
Nadine gasped behind us.
“Tessa!”
For the first time in two days, my daughter laughed.
Then I touched the short hair near her ear.
“So you really chose this?”
She nodded.
“Were you scared?”
“A little.”
“Do you miss it?”
She thought about that.
“Kind of.”
Then she glanced toward June, who was standing with her mother at the end of the hall.
“But she didn’t cry when she came to school today.”
I felt my eyes fill again.
“Tess, I’m so proud of you.”
She looked uncomfortable immediately.
“Mom.”
“I mean it.”
“Okay, but don’t make a speech.”
“No speech.”
“Promise?”
“Promise.”
We started walking toward the parking lot.
Halfway there, Tessa looked at me.
“Are you going to get in trouble at work?”
“Probably.”
